Two months and two days after my mother’s funeral, we buried my dear canine companion, Jack. We wrapped him up in my muslin skirt and his old towel, and placed him carefully in the hole we dug for him in a raised garden bed. We covered him with sweet, soft soil, and wept, before giving him a makeshift headstone, a remnant of the many earthquakes we had been through together. That was 6 months ago, on March 6th. Today Jack is coming up daffodils ( soon to be followed by tulips, plus unavoidable weeds! ), thanks to a friend’s gift of miniature bulbs. We planted them in Jack’s grave a few weeks after his death.
I miss my small friend. We loved each other for 13 years. I love him still.
My parents loved Jack, too. I like to imagine he is keeping them company wherever they are. And that they are giving Jack treats, as they once did, subversively, at the table; behaviour utterly discouraged by me; completely encouraged by my mother and father. Jack’s particular favourite was toasted crumpet crusts from my father’s hand, but vegemite toast crusts were almost as good. It was the hand that mattered more than the food, sometimes.
Vegemite crusts, treats
Jack anticipates the drop
Gran, Pop, dog collude
When the bulbs start to die away, I will scatter wildflower seeds on Jack’s grave. They will bring joy in their flowering.
ps Jack died at home, on his bean bag, after being particularly unwell for about a week. His heart failed, and he was gone. I was with him.
pps The ornamental duck was a Christmas gift from my children many years ago. It has led a hard life in the garden!
I feel sad for your loss. You made a beautiful resting place for Jack.
He looks like such a sweet doggie.
I did chuckle about the clandestine feedings under the table.
Best!
Thank you! He was so sweet. I still haven’t found the courage to bring another dog into my home. Maybe I am a one dog woman! 😀
You could be a one dog woman.
Then again, open your heart to the thought of being a 2 dog woman.
It breaks my heart into a million pieces to know how many dogs and cats are tortured, unloved, hungry, lonely, freezing in the winter, left in puppy mill cages and on and on.
If you could find it in your heart, there is another puppy or dog out there who would love you, forever! xoxo
It is heart-breaking. I am working on it. I have done a few stints of dog-sitting which have been very rewarding. 🙂
Good! I’m rooting for you, and for a doggie who needs a home!
And, today, I saw this quote: “Dogs come into our lives to teach us about love and loyalty. They depart to teach us about loss. A new dog never replaces an old dog; it merely expands the heart. If you have loved many dogs, your heart is very big.”
— Erica Jong I think the universe is talking to me. 😀
😀 😀 😀 beautiful!
R.I.p Your parents, loved ones and Jack. Lovely to have the spring flowers in their memory.
Thank you, Margaret. And it is spring time, once again, on this side of the world. I love it although I still feel sad that my parents are not here to enjoy it with me.
Summer here but spring always evokes mixed feelings, joy for new birth and growth but sadness for dear departed parents.
Where do you live?
I saw your recent comment on Gardening Nirvana and had to pop by to say hello. I had not seen this post on Jack but I do understand. We never stop missing them. I lost my Schatzie in 2011 and it’s still fresh everyday. Hope you are doing wel,l all things considered.
Thanks so much for coming by and leaving a kind word. I do miss my ‘boy’. He is coming up daffodils again at the moment. Spring is on its way once more.
I know this is an older post but the sadness never truly goes away. Jack was such a sweet boy.
Thank you! It never does. I am still not yet in a place where I can commit myself to another dog. Maybe he will remain my one true love. Who knows?
I am so sad reading about the loss of Jack, your dear companion. I have been away from the blogging world for over two years now and don’t know if/when I will return. I have moved and life is in new tracks now, but all is well. I hope you are well too, my friend. Hugs
Tiny, how lovely to hear from you! I have been thinking about you and wondering where life had taken you. I still miss Jack most dreadfully but, once again, his daffodils are coming through to add cheer to my life. I am not sure if I will ever return to blogging in a meaningful way. Hugs to you!
Thank you! Dylan sends his greetings to you too. He had a horrible accident about 18 months ago, he fell backwards after trying to jump on a high bed and damaged his spine. He couldn’t walk at all, but after a wonderful neurosurgeon operated on his spine, he has now fully recovered. Sending you comforting thoughts and many hugs from both of us!
Oh, I am so glad Dylan has recovered well.
This post really warms my heart (and I came here from Liz’s blog by the way)
and Jack was a cutie and nice to have that memorial area – I smiled to see the photos – and that duck sure has found a nice home in the seasons out there – like a keeper of the yard.
– when our dog Cody (yellow lab) passed away – he was unwell for a long weekend and just getting ready to consider a vet visit and then he passed – he was 12 – kidneys –
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anyhow, chers to the love Jack brought your way and hope you have a nice summer
Thank you so much for your kind words. 🙂
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Gallivanta, I thought I had seen this post and responded, but perhaps not. I am sorry you have now lost old Jack, too. I have the daffodils now to plant around the western incense cedar I planted in memory of your parents. Jack will be a part of that.
Thank you, Lavinia, for your generosity and kindness.
Very heartbreaking.<3
Thank you, Laleh. It was hard.
I understand.🥺
I’m so sorry for your loss. What a lovely resting place you’ve given his memory.
Thank you for your kind comment. The bulbs are over now. I am waiting for the wild flowers I planted to grow up and cover his resting place through out the summer..
What a lovely tribute, and Jack sure was a cutie. Such a nice place for him to rest.
Thank you, Brenda. I do appreciate having him close by, so to speak. 🙂
Any loss is difficult since it interrupts the normal flow of life and changes everything in many regards.
Bad time periods happen. Spring tulips and daffodils are so calming. Stay well!
Thank you for your comforting words, Inese.
dearest Jack… RIP. glad and lucky we met him last year “in person”… ❤
He loved all your pats. 🙂 🙂 🙂
Dear Gallivanta – I am sorry to learn of your double loss. What a beautiful tribute to Jack – I read it with Dylan on my side and teared up. This is a difficult year in so many ways, but this too shall pass. I wish you a beautiful spring with lots of flowers in your garden. A big virtual hug ❤
Thank you, Tiny. Lovely to hear from you and dear Dylan. I have been thinking about you recently and wondering how you are. I hope all is well.
Your mother and your wonderful companion Jack…I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much, Karen. So many losses this year throughout the world but each one deeply personal and deeply felt.
Oh no! Sorry to hear. So much loss is such a short time. Our thoughts are with you.
Thank you, Seth. It has been quite a year. My little Jack was a faithful companion and support through all the years of the earthquakes. A real trooper.
I am so sorry for your losses, but so happy for your love. Be well my friend.
Thank you, dear friend. Lots of adjustments to make but all will be well. 🙂
I’m so very sorry … Thinking of you and sending love
Dear Julie, thank you. This was my first real grieving for a pet since I was about 5. I know you know the process well; sad but natural, and all will be well. 🙂
Precious memories, and having a beautiful garden on Jack’s grave will keep his memory alive for you.
Thank you for your kind words. 🙂 It feels good to have a special space for Jack.
Hard to say goodbye to beloved family – both people and pets. A sad time for you, but you write so beautifully about it … not knowing my mother I still grieve for my seventeen rescue dogs, as well as my runaway cat who settled down with me!
Your memorial to Jack is beautiful, and I hope it is a small a comfort, Valerie
Thank you, Valerie, for your comforting comment. I am amazed, but not surprised, that you have shared your life over the years with 17 dogs and 1 cat; that represents a lot of love, compassion, joy and heartache.
What a lovely thing to say, thank you Amanda
🙂 🙂 🙂
How tender and beautiful to witness Jack’s flowering into daffodils.
It really is, Juliet. Jack loved our little garden. It was the best place to lay him to rest.
How perfect.
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I’m glad that you were with Jack at the end. When Dixie Rose died, it was so sudden that only luck, or coincidence, or some sort of inexplicable knowing brought me home at an odd time to find her and care for her. Lacking a garden, I still have her ashes, and a paw print in clay done for me by the crematorium. I do laugh when I look at it; it’s so like the little handprints we did for our mothers in kindergarten. I suspect your bit of fur gives you the same sort of comfort. I’ve been asked if I’m going to scatter Dixie Rose’s ashes, but all I can say, in a bit of utter irrationality, is “No — she never liked being outdoors.” Even typing that makes me laugh!
I am smiling with you! I am sure Dixie Rose would approve of your irrationality. If you put your hand on the box of ashes, you might even feel a purr. 😀 The paw print sounds lovely.
I’m very sorry for your loss, Jack sounds like a lovely little character.
Thank you, Andrea. He was a character and, true to his schnauzer breed, very stubborn as well. 🙂
I am sorry for your loss. My sincere condolences. In one song there were the words: “they live while we remember them”. I believe, the memories of him never leave your heart.
Thank you, Alex. I believe that too.
Condolences for your losses. You still have your precious memories that will stay with you. Amelia
Thank you, Amelia. I am hoping that by putting some of my memories on paper I will hold on to them longer!
I don’t know which is harder on us, losing a parent or a pet. Although to some folks comparing the two is hardly appropriate, both are deeply implanted in our being and leave a special void. The grave you made for Jack is lovely. That it will flower for you for years to come and keeps your love for him and his for you alive is a wonderful remembrance.
I ask myself that question too. Initially, I was more distraught over my dog, simply because he had been my constant companion, my shadow, for 13 years, whereas my darling mother was far away physically and, in the end, barely knew me. But, in the months since my mother’s death, I feel her absence more and more. Yet I feel settled and accepting of Jack’s demise. Perhaps having a physical and natural memorial to him is healing. My mother’s ashes remain in my sister’s cupboard, awaiting a post Covid scattering.
I’m so sorry to hear of the death of your mother. I lost mine last November, and life just isn’t the same without her. I’m also sorry to hear of the death of your beloved dog Jack. How lovely to have perennial flowers that will bloom in his memory.
Thank you, Liz. I was sorry to hear about your mother, too, via the podcast you did with Rebecca Budd. Your conversation inspired me to start writing haiku as a way of keeping in touch with memories of my mother and father and grandparents. Aroha nui and Kia Kaha to you.
I’m so glad my conversation with Rebecca inspired you to write haiku to stay in touch with with memories of your family who have passed on.
🙂 My attempts at haiku eventually morphed into an attempt at renga with my siblings via Skype!
That sounds like a lot of fun!!!
It certainly was!
You’ve been through a lot this year. My thoughts are with you. The flowers on Jack’s grave are lovely.
Thank you, Sheryl. Flowers always make things better, I think. It’s been a tough old year for many people, and we still have a few months yet before we can kiss it ( from behind our masks 🙂 ) goodbye.
Dear Jack. ❤ The daffodils and other flowers you plant in his memory will always serve to remind you of the fun and joyful times you shared. Many hugs to you. xxx
🙂 🙂 🙂 Thank you, Sylvia. It’s so comforting that we can entrust our memories to flowers and plants . I have plants for my parents too.
Love daffodils so much. We get those in April/May, so long gone now. The yellow is so cheery!
Agreed. Daffodils are like little warm spots of sunshine sent to make us smile. 🙂
Hugs to you. It’s hard to remember but also healing. Very sweet of your friend to give those daffodil bulbs which will flower every year this time of the year. Also n lovely idea to plant mixed flowers in summer.
Your hugs are much appreciated. I know you have had a few dogs so you have been through this sense of loss before. I was heartbroken at first but I am healing well.
Glad to hear about the healing. I made special scrapbook page for each of my late dogs. Still miss them at times.
What a lovely idea.
I also have a special dog album with all the photos of my sweet dogs.
Awww….. 🙂
Oh, darlin! Loss is part of life but it makes us so sad. What a lovely little corner to remember him, back in those days when he could romp about. Thinking of you, and sending hugs. 🙂 🙂
Thank you, Jo. And, yes, it’s hard but one does have to accept that there’s no life without loss. We had a great life together, and I am very grateful for that.
Oh, Mandy! What a terrible year you’ve had! I am so sorry that Jack has died. I love Jack’s Garden, a fitting memorial to a true companion.
It has been quite a year, Clare! Jack’s death, like my mother’s, was not unexpected but it happened more quickly than I expected. My son insisted that we bury Jack in the garden. I am glad that I listened to him because it’s lovely to have this little space to look upon, and remember Jack.
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Amanda, So sorry for your loss. I do understand how you feel. After 13 years, he was a part of you. May you cherish your memories.
Dear Michele, we are very much in this together, aren’t we, with the loss of our precious fur babies this year. When we take them on, we know that they won’t live as long as we will but we hope, somehow, that a miracle will occur and they will be with us forever. Jack was the first proper ‘pet’ I had had since my teen years.
I always enjoyed your pics of Jack. I could see that you were close. xo
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Awww so sad to lose a wonderful mother and back to back a best body. Memories are the best way to stay strong.❤️
Thank you, Laleh. I am grateful for so many precious memories.
My pleasure.❤️
A profound, gentle and joyful tribute to a dear friend, who added joy and humour to your journey. I especially appreciated your words: “We loved each other for 13 years. I love him still.” You reminded me that death does come, but the relationship we had with those who move on to new pathways, remains alive and vibrant. Much love and many hugs coming your way.
Thank you, Rebecca. I agree. It is indeed wonderful how relationships continue without the physical presence of a loved one! Today, I learned the sad news of the death of New Zealand blogger, Pauline King, The Contented Crafter. I didn’t meet Pauline in person but reading through my posts about Pauline makes me feel we are still connected. And she will, through her posts and comments, continue to be connected with all her other blogging friends all over the world.
I just went on Pauline King’s blog. Her creative spirit is alive in every one of her posts. This is a reminder to me to create wonderful memories with family and friends, for it is these memories that will sustain and guide those who remain when we move on in our journey. Much love and many hugs coming your way.
🙂 Yes! Pauline was a kindred spirit. She nurtured community.
You will always love your Jack. Lovely that Daffodils are coming up, bringing yellow sunshine from Jack up. Hugs xx
Ute, I am looking forward to seeing the daffodils pop up every year from now on. I plan to add a few more bulbs before next winter. It’s lovely, isn’t it, how our love for our pets endures? And we remember our old pets so clearly even when so much else from our past is forgotten.
Eve and I are sorry for all the losses you’ve experienced in the past year. Requiescant in pace.
I just saw a feature on television about pilots who take unwanted dogs out of shelters and fly them to adoption. The organization is called Dog is My Pilot (whose first word is spelled backward from the way it normally appears in that statement): https://tinyurl.com/y3quz5wu
Thank you, Steve and Eve. It makes me smile that God and dog can be interchanged so pleasingly sometimes, 🙂 Indeed, at times it seems as though there is more God in Dog than in mankind.
A good dog goes on forever in one’s heart. May he go on flowering so magnificently.
Thank you, Tish. The tulips are about to open. I am looking forward to that. Jack’s favourite plant in the garden was the nandina. He loved brushing against it.
A sweet tribute to your beloved Jack. I only knew him through your posts and always enjoyed his guest appearances. As one dog lover to another I know how much it hurts, how real the love and send you virtual hugs xx
Virtual hugs gratefully received. 🙂 I had hoped that Jack would be with us for about 15 years but that was not to be. He did very well to manage 13 years. I have a little container of his soft hair near my desk which I like to touch now and then. He was so soft and silky.
Such memories will go on forever, as long as we still speak their names.
Thank you, GP. That is so true. That’s why it’s important to keep telling our stories.
Exactly.
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How very well said, GP Cox!!
Thank you. It’s from the heart.